I've been thinking a lot about trust lately... about how adamantly we say we trust God, yet how slow we actually are to trust Him in the deepest and daily aspects of our lives.
Because the thing is... it's not just about how much we trust God. It's about who we trust most.
I was talking to Him just this afternoon and He said it gentle... "You still trust yourself more than you trust me." And I knew right away He was right. I wonder if I'm not the only one.
Yeah, sure, we trust God. But when it comes down to it, do we really trust His advice above our own ideas? Do we really act like He knows better than us? Do we really believe what He thinks about us more than what we think of ourselves?
I don't know about you but I find that my default is still to turn to my own powers of reasoning instead of His... to plan my own day instead of letting Him do it for me.
And really, how can we say we trust Him with our lives if we can't put His reasoning above our own? In every situation?
High calling, I know. At least for me. But isn't He trustworthy? A million times more than we are?
Maybe it's not just about if we trust God or not, but about who we trust most.
Us? Or Him?